I had the same physical symptoms when I was deciding whether to marry my ex. Temperature swings, heart racing, couldn’t sleep properly. My body knew something was wrong. I picked the safe option anyway and told myself the symptoms were just pre-wedding nerves.
I’d rather adopt 47 feral cats than go through another runner phase with my twin flame, and I’m allergic to cats.
I keep asking myself why we even bother. Why give them another chance when they’ve proven they’ll run the second things get hard? The logical part of me knows this pattern is a mess. What happens when we have kids? Are they gonna watch daddy vanish every time feelings get too heavy? I’m on separation number three and each time he runs, I believe less in this whole ‘divine timing’ thing.
Yeah, these separations make me face my own stuff and grow. But when does spiritual growth just become an excuse for someone who can’t handle their emotions? My twin does the same thing, runs away, then months later suddenly realizes what went wrong. Like clockwork.
The growth happens, sure, but I’m starting to think a real relationship needs two people who can stick around when things get tough. Not one person grows from being abandoned, while the other grows from running away. How do you build something real when someone’s go-to move is disappearing?
From trial and error with my twin flames fire sign vibe, the chest pressure and buzzing got worse whenever I mixed in caffeine or hard sprints. Coffee plus HIIT just scrambled the connection. Slower, yin-type work and controlled lifting fit better with our earth-water thing. I also cut off caffeine after noon. That took the edge off those early waves for us.
The tingling in my spine kicked in at 11:11, right before our last meeting. Those last few weeks my whole system felt off. Anyone else get temperature swings during this phase? Id be burning up one minute and shivering the next. Felt like my body couldnt settle.
The mood swings came out of nowhere.
Even my usually oblivious roommate asked if I was PMSing for three weeks straight. Turns out I was basically picking up my twins’ separation anxiety like a busted antenna.
I think my physical sensations were more from my emotional feelings than any kind of actual physical pain.
I swear I had a WTF moment reading this because this is my exact story. I’m so excited about what is in the future for all of us if we follow the journey. Just thinking about it brings me to tears.
I know I’m not ready for union yet though but we’re close. There’s still so much anger I’m holding onto about everything that happened. Part of me still blames myself for not being stronger, and I can feel how that energy would just push them away if we connected now.
How can I open my heart completely when I’m still protecting what’s left of it? I need to learn to trust life again before I can trust in divine timing. I’m happy to hear everything worked out for you two in this lifetime. Hopefully, it will give others hope and help them find peace instead of pain.