@Alicia_Paukovic Honestly, the energetic intimacy is the strangest part of this to get used to! It’s the thing that consistently has me questioning my sanity, lol! And @StarGirl Yes!! I agree, I love it and am 100% leaning into this! My twin and I are thousands of miles away and haven’t been intimate in the 3D in over 34yrs, but we both remember. I have been wondering if the telepathic sex is possibly related to Kundalini energy?! As it’s only been manifesting since neither one of us is actively running, we are both chasing, lol!
Complicated situation because I’m in a long term relationship that still has to resolve some karmic contracts. The reason I wonder about Kundalini is the spiritual energy I’m experiencing is shifting, expanding… hard to describe. But just yesterday while I was defrosting and cleaning my refrigerator (sexy job, I know
) I started to have these intense, only way to describe it, is spontaneous orgasm (tmi?) anyway it was escalating and I had the sensation of warmth start traveling up my spine, I got goosebumps and chills, violent shivering, I had to go lay down, everything was involuntary, followed by a very intense emotional release, crying etc! Lasted for about half an hour. It was very weird and not something I have ever experienced, ever!!! It felt amazing, like tapping into the universe!
More Please!!! ![]()
When we united the second time I would not have sex with him. We even lived together. I dont think he wanted to either for different reasons. I knew he would leave again. Maybe not the horribleness but I knew. I knew if we were intimate again his departure would be that much more painful. So know way. Kundalini was alive and present while we were in the same house but in different rooms. I didn’t let it happen. And while he has been gone? Never. I can’t understand why anyone would want to allow that intimacy in when you know you and your counterpart are not healed. It’s not easy for any of us but why make it easier for them? Why give them that when you are knee deep in pain? They don’t deserve it. I will kundalini my ass off only after my third and final union. Until then? He needs to keep working because I am done. Of course I will have sex with someone if the opportunity presents itself. To think otherwise is just silly. But the best part I’m saving for last. We both know how special it is. I have had one very long soulmate relationship but also a long list of lovers. Him too. We know it’s different. We know it’s not something everyone gets to experience. But we are both older with a lot of experience under our belts and some things are just worth waiting for.
I put boundary over this sexual need the last time we reconnected, then he poofed out of my radar, 2 years not talking to him since.
Then you made the right choice. If you had given yourself to him and he bolted, think of how much worse it would have been. I am going to be very honest. When mine left this last time it devastated me. If we had been intimate? I swear on all that’s holy. I dont think I could have come back from that. Intimacy with him is me giving myself completely. it’s amazing for us both. But if I would have jumped back in the last time he came back I would have been destroyed by the way he departed. I know that with certainty.
I know, but there is a part of myself that still think of the ‘what if’. What if I agree to his request, would everything will be different. Although, I know being intimate doesn’t guarantee commitment, doesn’t guarantee him staying. And, honestly, the other side of me feeling angry because I think of such possibility, to break my own boundary.
You should just trust yourself and your choices. You know the drill. Just do it from a place of self love not from desperation. Women have used sex and even pregnancy to keep a man for decades. You are in a much more evolved place coming up with umevolved solutions. This is your journey. Not mine. Listen to your heart. You will be just fine if you do. ![]()
Just want to add my 2 cents to this thread that twin flame sex is not too mindblowing, when one of the twins has deep sexual dysfunction from childhood trauma. That was one of the reasons we separated. Everywhere I read says that TF sex is out of this world, which is not always the case. For us, there was a constant need for merging, like breathing air - yes. But I wasn’t able to climax or fully let go, to be able to experience the full beauty of TF sex.
For me an intimacy always comes after commitment. It’s sacred. So, I asked for commitment first. I’ll hate myself if I break my own boundaries, and I’ll be destroyed if he left the way he did after the intimacy. The regret comes because deep down I want it, too. It would be a lie if I said I don’t feel anything. So, the regret make me questioning my decision.
I just had a thought about you. My twin and I had sex many times in the beginning but one time., The second time is what I now believe kept me going. Him too. It was one of those things that shakes you to the core and stays forever. So maybe we all need that first. The one thing that will help you to not give up. If I am completely honest sex is the only reason I even saw him again after we met. Sex is the only thing that has kept me hanging on. I don’t mean to sound vain when I say this but getting a man is not hard for me. I know I could go on another dating app and be with someone by sundown. I also know I will never find the intimacy I am looking for now either. Honestly it’s ridiculous to think about it. It’s truly become the suckiest kind of limbo I could never have imagined. Just another mind fuck. Only this time it’s actually about fucking lol.