Hello All!
First, I want to express my gratitude for this space, it presented itself at just the right time in my life, thank you!
Okay, let’s dive in! My story is long and is currently going through some sort of transition, so only time will tell! I met my DM when I was 16, he was 17. In many ways it’s a classic twin flame meeting though I have only just learned about the concept recently. It was the last day of school and I saw him for the first time and was absolutely entranced, I had no fear, he felt magnetic! I approached and, well, that was that! We entered into an extremely intense but short relationship. He was first to run! We have switched dynamics, for a long time I became the runner, suppressing and avoiding the sensations and emotions.
Back to the story…
I then entered a relationship with a man who is my current partner of 34 yrs. We have had our ups and downs, but he’s basically my best friend. Meanwhile throughout the years my Twin would reach out to me periodically, declaring his absolute unconditional love for me, always respecting my relationship! He was the first to say that we are soulmates, that he always knew we were soulmates. We would have little rounds of communications, sometimes just pleasantries, sometimes intense, always emotional. I have always loved him, no matter what was going on in my life, he literally never left my mind. I can also feel energetically when he wants me to reach out to him, I just have this sense, it’s hard to describe! Anyway, I had a child and life goes on, like it does. And always the undercurrent was my Twin, I became so used to the feeling of the wanting, missing, of him being just out of reach, it became a comfortable default. Life was good, I was happy. And then something happened that I can’t explain! We had entered into an extended period of no contact (I feel necessary to say that we haven’t seen each other in person in over 30 yrs and have only talked on the phone twice in that amount of time) so our pattern is definitely separation with periods of no contact.
But, back to the story once again!
We started talking again, recently and it feels different!!! I can’t explain it, I feel an almost uncontrollable urge to go to him, talk to him, it’s like a compulsion, an obsession. Except it’s not, I’ve know this man my whole life and though I have always loved him it has never been this intense! I was struggling a lot. I could feel him, not metaphorically, literally feel him! I would have these upwelling’s of emotions not connected to my life, at random moments that didn’t make sense, I would feel moments of physical intimacy (while doing chores 
) I feel like our higher selves are driving right now! I am increasingly seeing repeated numbers 11:11 has been popping up a lot as has 311.
Anyway, I have historically been guarded with him, I didn’t want to acknowledge my feelings or create unnecessary expectations. Somewhere I lost that, I have been spilling 30+ yrs of suppressed emotion! Feels like I’m unlocking something sacred! Poor guy though, I think it’s a bit intense and though he continues to declare his love, he seems to also be jogging a little, not a full on run, just a jog!
So, this is still in development, I’m awaiting communication as I type. And what I have learned so far in this journey is this:
Your feelings are valid, you feel what you feel.
Love demands reciprocity. This is just as painful for our twins as it is for us. Allow integration!
Don’t chase, just be, surrender!
Most important, Love Yourself!!! Your twin is your mirror, if you show yourself love they will feel it!
From what I’ve read and understand Twin Flame Journey is about evolution, growth and change. Our twins are a catalyst for that change!
That is my story, it feels good to communicate it to a group that understands what this is like and I am so grateful!
So, beautiful souls, keep the fire alive!
I’d love to hear your thoughts~
Cheers 
Honestly there is so much more to tell, a lot happens over the course of 34 yrs!! But to answer your questions…My partner and I of the last 34 years are still together. I’m having a really hard time reconciling this as we have been through so much and have a really good dynamic! But this new development with my twin has my soul screaming, that’s what it feels like anyway. So a little more on my story…After I left the relationship with my twin way back when, I immediately met my current partner (there must have been something in the air, lol) and we became very serious! My twin had an awakening at that point, sending me letters saying he knew he had made a mistake and that I was his other half. That’s the words of an 19 yr old boy! 
I think his energy can sense the threat. During a particularly complicated time in my relationship with my partner I had reached out to my twin and spent the day with him, it was transcendent! He asked me to run away with him and marry him, that he could never be whole without me. So, I wanted to on the soul level, I just chickened out in the 3D and ran like my butt was on fire. For years, silence, no contact, yet if I went for a hike I would scratch his name in the dirt, I would think about him all the time. His presence in my psyche was very comforting, a part of me. My partner to this day has absolutely no idea any of this is happening…anyway, during that silence my twin moved to a different country (where he still lives). My twin and I have a telepathic connection, so I have been able to “feel” when he’s reaching out and wants contact. Because of my relationship with my partner I have a private email I use to communicate with my twin, the dishonesty is making me a bit crazy but I can’t help this, It’s like a compulsion!! And….I don’t think my twin is in a relationship right now, though he has had serious partners. Our current situation is this, I had been in no contact(running) for the last three years, guilt, my dad dying, teenager at home all contributing to that silence. Then in the middle of the night before last Christmas I picked up my phone and emailed him, it was a sort of unconscious action, he immediately wrote back saying he was laying awake and thinking about me, he had lost my email (silly) and had spent the last few years spending money to try and find me. So we started a slow, pleasant interaction, me always carefully keeping my emotions in check. Well, over the subsequent few months we exchanged photos (he’s so cute 
) and he sent me an email that stopped me dead…how he didn’t want to wait until the next life to find me again, thanks god I exist, I won’t say more it’s very personal and I hold it dear but he has a very romantic soul! Ok, so this is stuff I’ve heard him say over the years, but this time, something in me shifted. I could feel it, like being tuned by the universe or having your compass pointed in a different direction. It’s so hard to describe!! It’s not rational and it’s not comfortable but it’s also not dismissible! I have felt like I’m losing my mind, asking myself, literally in the mirror, if I’m going crazy? So that’s kind of where we are now. There more details, but I feel like this is a super long response already. 