Today I woke up asked my Alexa for the time, 4.04 am. 4 energy repeating mirroring numbers, okay. I looked it up - “you both have to be responsible for how you show up in this connection”. I took this as guidance that I’ve been carrying the weight of the connection - because well, I probably have been carrying too much.
I felt okay but knew I was still a bit overthinky so started journaling as I had been a little bit spirally and OCD yesterday with fear and grief being the motivator. It wasn’t toooo bad. I was still able to keep pretty positive but it was punctuated with wobbles.
Day got going, was a grey day here, we’ve had some sunnier days recently, which have oddly seemed to coincide with my mood. It certainly did today as I soon started spiralling bad, the old underconfident, I’m not worthy because of this flaw type crap. And grief. Big grief waves.
I looked at my phone - 13.13 - hadn’t looked at the phone for the time in an age. Sat there scrolling, feeling a bit pants but trying to focus on positivity. It was hard though. Bit later I look at my phone again 13.33. Okay that has to mean something so I do some research. 3 energy. I looked up 13:13 specifically Divine guidance and protection, ascended masters are “right beside you” encouraging you to keep the focus on positivity as you have to power to manifest right now. I decided to look at exactly why I was spiralling and listen to my soul, which knows, which knows - and so fear has no power. Felt a little better but decided to also do a guided meditation from the blueprint - the one to clear negative energy.
Right before the meditation I had an odd thought as I walked into my bedroom - “I bet the sun comes out”. No clue why I thought this and the day certainly wasn’t looking like that was likely. I did the meditation, it was only short but really helped. Walked out of the room feeling much, much better with a renewed focus on positivity. A few minutes, not even 5 minutes later, I am not kidding you, the sun comes out, I smiled, looked at the bright blue sky and said thank you.
Looked at the clock a little bit later 14.04. 4 energy. Back on the right track. Building solid foundations. I’m telling you…. Oh and later on I found out me and Twin Flame’s combined life path number adds up to 7 - apparently the divine number. Feeling much better now, I needed that still a bit OCD maybe but I’m aware it’s just that now, OCD. The fear and much of the grief has gone.
Maybe there was something going on..