Just been thinking back to the start, a few weeks after first meeting my DM. First day we met and had our eyelock. He was openly staring and smiling at me but when I spoke to him later he got very flustered so I didn’t push it. Then we were “separated” for several weeks as he was overseas.
When he came back (I had no idea about twin flames until a couple of months after we met) I was having lunch with coworkers. I’d seen him outside before and he’d been totally smiling and staring as I walked past. Then he saw me at the table and made a beeline for me. When he sat next to me the energy and magnetic pull was so strong I struggled to eat. I just wanted away, I couldn’t look at him. But I was sitting between him and someone else so had to stay lol. Had no idea what was going on and felt very uncomfortable. The feeling wore off with time but I still got very wobbly and struggled being near him.
Have any other chasers/DFs experienced this kind of thing early on? Wanting to run away?
It was my DM who first took notice of me and initiated communication. He fell for me first. And during initial times, the way he looked at me, the way he smiled, the way he smelled, the way he talked… almost the way he existed felt literally so overwhelming to me.
He used to be so tender and loving with approaching me that I almost felt like a fragile flower. A part of me liked it, a part of me was startled and was pulling away. But eventually, I gave in.
I used to get really nervous and stupid around him. I simply labelled it as a crush and didn’t thought much about it until I saw this question.
100% couldn’t get away fast enough. My gut was screaming this mans ego could really hurt you. I practically ran from our first meeting. I was never going to see him again. I meant it. I have always had very good radar when it came to choosing men. Then he called and left a vm the same day. That voice. It did me in. I caved but I told myself friends with benefits only. So in a sense I caused my own pain by not listening to my gut for the first time. It begs the question though. Is the pull so strong you can’t even control your own intuition? What if I would have stood my ground and never called him back?
100%, I kept making excuses in my head about how it could go wrong because it was so overwhelming, and I felt the need to run for my life, it was easier than to stay and face the intensity, I didn’t, though. We were together when that happened, but in separation (with talking), I was not having a good time and wanted to go, but never left, that was different. Is not that I wanted to run, because I didn’t want to, but I had to put distance, I thought about it, but I just couldn’t until I broke, then I stopped talking to him, that was my surrender. I feel it’s easy to mistake the fear of staying with the fear of leaving.