Me and my twin had been in separation for quite some time. And sometimes, out of no where, I feel a sudden rush of apathy in me. So random. So strange. So unreal. So confusing.
I would be doing my work… Reading, singing, dancing, anything and then suddenly I feel disinclined to it. Whatever I might be doing, I drop it and move to do something else. But there lies a restlessness in me and that next thing feels so boring again.
I wonder if it’s because of my twin. Has this ever happened to anyone else? Is it normal?
What does it mean?
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Yes, I had this happen to me. Quite recently, actually. It started after I got my first real job in nearly 4 years. I don’t know if my twin felt a shift or something, but a month later, she removed anything regarding our business dealings from her social media. The apathy quickly dissipated. It was like being woken up from a deep slumber. So, whether that apathy was more to do with myself or my twin, I don’t know, but I suspect it had to do with them.
Yes! A lot of the ambitions and motivations that used make life feel “normal” as if working towards something just disappeared and I lost passion for a lot of hobbies and interests I used to have. Life definitely feels a lot more boring than it used to, and I have trouble committing myself to projects and even jobs.
We as human being really are just these primitive Stone Age creatures who evolved to forage, hunt, and hang out with our tribe; thus our ancestors didn’t have all these lofty goals and ideas in regards to careers, status, etc… Now, none of those things are inherently wrong, but post ego death you realize that a lot of our motivations and desires are programmed into us by both society and our ego.
Eventually you reach this stage where the connection just doesn’t hold that same weight anymore. That’s probably what you need right now, even if it feels strange.
I’m not quite there myself yet, still have some healing work to do first (or at least that’s what it feels like). But from everything I’ve seen, it’s a natural part of the process.
Just keep doing what you love. Be yourself.
Divine love doesn’t get replaced no matter how long the separation drags on, and they’re always within you somehow (even when it doesn’t feel like it). Trust the timing, even when the restlessness makes everything feel pointless.
The universe has a way of stripping everything away during separation. Everything.
I was basically a walking shell, just existing without really being present. Nothing held any meaning anymore. It felt like I was being dismantled piece by piece. That ghostlike state you’re describing, I lived there completely.
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