Me and my twin had been in separation for quite some time. And sometimes, out of no where, I feel a sudden rush of apathy in me. So random. So strange. So unreal. So confusing.
I would be doing my work… Reading, singing, dancing, anything and then suddenly I feel disinclined to it. Whatever I might be doing, I drop it and move to do something else. But there lies a restlessness in me and that next thing feels so boring again.
I wonder if it’s because of my twin. Has this ever happened to anyone else? Is it normal?
What does it mean?
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Yes, I had this happen to me. Quite recently, actually. It started after I got my first real job in nearly 4 years. I don’t know if my twin felt a shift or something, but a month later, she removed anything regarding our business dealings from her social media. The apathy quickly dissipated. It was like being woken up from a deep slumber. So, whether that apathy was more to do with myself or my twin, I don’t know, but I suspect it had to do with them.
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Yes! A lot of the ambitions and motivations that used make life feel “normal” as if working towards something just disappeared and I lost passion for a lot of hobbies and interests I used to have. Life definitely feels a lot more boring than it used to, and I have trouble committing myself to projects and even jobs.
We as human being really are just these primitive Stone Age creatures who evolved to forage, hunt, and hang out with our tribe; thus our ancestors didn’t have all these lofty goals and ideas in regards to careers, status, etc… Now, none of those things are inherently wrong, but post ego death you realize that a lot of our motivations and desires are programmed into us by both society and our ego.
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Eventually you reach this stage where the connection just doesn’t hold that same weight anymore. That’s probably what you need right now, even if it feels strange.
I’m not quite there myself yet, still have some healing work to do first (or at least that’s what it feels like). But from everything I’ve seen, it’s a natural part of the process.
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Just keep doing what you love. Be yourself.
Divine love doesn’t get replaced no matter how long the separation drags on, and they’re always within you somehow (even when it doesn’t feel like it). Trust the timing, even when the restlessness makes everything feel pointless.
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The universe has a way of stripping everything away during separation. Everything.
I was basically a walking shell, just existing without really being present. Nothing held any meaning anymore. It felt like I was being dismantled piece by piece. That ghostlike state you’re describing, I lived there completely.
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What you’re describing sounds like energetic bleedthrough. My twin has two kids, and I noticed something, the apathy waves I get often line up with moments when he’s emotionally drained from parenting. Like his energy tank hits empty and somehow mine drains too.
You might also just need to take a break from the whole twin flame journey. Maybe just stop consuming the content for a while. Not saying give up or forget about it but fill your time with some other things.
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Those apathy rushes hit me hard last separation too. Like, deep into a book or humming along to something and then just… flatline. Everything dull. I think the soul kind of pulls back into surrender, releasing grip on the daily distractions so you can tune into the bond at a deeper level. Your energy syncs up and mirrors that quiet space between you and your twin. That’s how it felt for me anyway.
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Trust that feeling. If your soul knows your time with them isn’t up, just trust it. Sending love through this dark time. Find whatever coping mechanism works and hold on to it during separation, even the ones that seem small or silly. Reunion happens eventually with twin flames. Even when we can’t see the timeline. That’s the part that gets you through.
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The apathy cycles will start making way more sense once you figure out where your core wounds are. Probably abandonment or rejection. The healing has to be about you as an individual, not some strategy to get him back. That’s where most twins get completely stuck, sometimes for years.
The unusual amount of time you’ve spent together helps here, you have real experiences to reflect on rather than just feelings that might seem delusional.
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I’m in this now. Only I describe it as someone peeling me off of my life and sticking me back on, but all askew. I’m not here, I’m not there. It’s bizarre.
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I needed to read this right now. I’ve been having a heck of a time. My old - go to coping strategy was alcohol. Well, that was ripped away. When the moments (days, weeks, months) of apathy hit, I’m on the edge of not being able to handle it anymore. Enough is enough, you know. How strong am I supposed to be for this connection? Then it breaks and I feel freed up like I can commit to something important and follow through, but then there’s some more crud. Just doesn’t seem like a life I would’ve signed up for…unless I was blacked out.
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I’m feeling this today! It comes and goes in cycles but today? It’s bad!! I keep asking myself what’s the point in anything I was doing before? Hopefully the energy shifts soon.
@energy_balance Thank you for saying that, I needed reminding! The universe guided me to see your post today. I recently had a phone conversation with my twin (2nd time in 30 years) I was expressing how weird and wonderful our soul connection is. He said it’s not weird at all!! That we are blessed to have found our counterpart at an early age and this lifetime. That, and here’s the important part, “no matter where he is or what he’s doing, we are always connected!” So, thank you! Because his silence, whether from processing or real life internet connection issues (he lives in a different country) has been really painful lately and I’m having trouble centering.
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