I guess this is my introductory post. I never knew what twin flames were.
I met TF when we were teenagers. Because I am the runner, I didn’t know how intense his experience was meeting me. From my side of the experience I just knew I always felt safe with him when he was around. He made me laugh. We always saw each other in group settings, but we would always find each other and it was like nobody else was there. But I didn’t feel it like romance. I was honestly completely unaware. He on the other hand was completely overwhelmed. He tried once to tell me how he felt but before he got the words out, I must have sensed it because I never let him. I got my first boyfriend and so began our separation.
He was love sick.
We both started experiencing waves of depression, separately.
Our paths would cross, like we worked in the same workplace years later, but I had another boyfriend by then.
He once saw me when he was driving and I was walking and he pulled over to say hi - I was wearing my baby.
We were on and off friends online over the years on different platforms. I always loved our conversations. He was always so respectful that I never knew about his feelings.
In 2009, he was at the bottom with his depression. His health was always unexplainably bad. He begged God to end his life and instead he was saved (spiritual awakening). His health issues resolved and he started experiencing “miracles” (synchronicities, signs etc.).
In 2020 we both quit our social media accounts not knowing that the other had.
In 2022 we were often at the gym at the same time, but I didn’t see him! He thought I was mad at him.
In 2024 I intentionally started trying to embody my feminine energy. Nothing to do with being a TF because I still didn’t know what that was. I was just aware of my blocked feminine energy and I wanted to learn to surrender, go with the flow, be receptive instead of always building and hunting so to speak.
In 2025 I set my intention with my yoga practice to be “oneness”… Why? Because I was aware of my political tribalism and the division in the world. I wanted to feel one with everyone/God. No more judging or sorting people into “safe” or “unsafe”.
I went back on FB in the spring of 2025. Not long after I got a friend request from TF who also just returned to FB at the same time.. We were both into politics and for the first time we were on the same side lol.. so we reconnected about that.
I went to a yoga ashram for 5 days doing intense meditation, yoga, chanting etc. every day, with the intention still of finding my “oneness”. I got it. I left feeling completely different about people.
And then.. the magnet turned on. Our very normal, friend level conversations were having an intense effect on me. I had never experienced that in 20 years of marriage and I have always had male friends. I seriously considered just not talking to him anymore. But instead, I said to him one night, “in the next life, go where I go.” That’s all I said. Our conversations were otherwise completely neutral. That’s all it took. That was my surrender moment.
He describes feeling an intense overall body sensation. I started my spiritual awakening/kundalini activation. That day God put a video in my YouTube algorithm about Karmics, Twin Flames and Soul Mates among all of my usual political content. I don’t even know why I watched it. That’s when I realized what we were. I had 3 weeks of experiencing an altered reality, precognition experiences, extreme synchronicities, songs playing as if they were reading my mind. I could feel God in my chest. I felt like if I hugged people I could heal them. I can tell you exactly where I was when I left 5D and went back to 3D, it was that obvious. As I was going through this stage, TF who is christian said it was exactly what he went through in 2009 when he was “saved”.
For two months I had intense discomfort at my solar plexus almost 24/7, varying in intensity. I was not sleeping, I couldn’t eat. I lost 20 lbs. My attachments dissolved. I kept saying”I feel like I don’t even know who I am anymore”.
TF also lost weight at this time. He was always double my weight. When I was 118, he was 236. If I was 122, he was 244.
My eyes changed colour. My skin softened. Even my always calloused and cracked heels were completely soft.
We still hadn’t seen each other in 3D during this time. I was married. I left my marriage as soon as I could. Through all of this it was like a veil was removed from my eyes and I could no longer tolerate the abuse and self abandonment in my marriage. Not to be with TF. He also knew that I needed to focus on my own healing. He was so good at being selfless. He just wanted me to get well and be regulated again.
I spent a month at an ashram. Near the end of my stay started the real dark night of the soul. Old traumas surfacing in waves that pushed the capacity of my nervous system. I spent the next 6 weeks alone. Crying a lot. Walking a lot. I lost best friends who said “I’d changed”. I was desperate to just feel stable again. I did another month at the ashram and this started a gentler season. The waves were smaller when they came.
I went home at Christmas. My soul mate husband had a small awakening the day I told him I was leaving him. His loss triggered a veil to lift for him as well. During our 3 month separation, he stayed consistent. We had always gone to counselling, but now he had new depth and understanding too.
My nervous system had finally settled after surfacing so many old traumas and I was feeling safe at home with him again. I committed to surrendering to God at the very beginning of my spiritual awakening. The whole journey was obviously so divine that I knew it was not up to me to steer. When my husband owned everything and genuinely changed, I took that as my sign from God that I wasn’t supposed to lose everything I had built and start over. I grieved TF hard. He also felt grief and relief. My stability matters to him more than anything.
And so now, we have a boundaried friendship. We never go too deep. Integrity is a shared value of ours. We know what we are. He knows he’s never really alone anymore (shared mental space).
It is not easy. We both know this journey is about oneness with God and that we have each accelerated that journey for each other.
Thank you for reading this far 
