My journey started two years ago with Danielle. I had already been with my twin for a year at that point. Once I found out about twin flames I was grateful to finally realize I was not completely crazy. You see, I was never the kind of person to tolerate anything from anyone without speaking up to them. Not with my twin though. I know now I was too afraid of losing him to be myself. Anyway I decided then and there to not go on any forums until this was over. I kept having signs telling me to look outside of my comfort zone. I wasn’t sure exactly what I was supposed to do with that though. Then one day I was bombarded with some number. don’t remember which one because I was only half assed journaling at that point. I looked up the number with twin flame in the query instead of angels or numerology and pure twin flame popped up. I took advantage of the free reading. I was in seperation at the time but we always stayed in contact and I knew he was coming back soon and we were going to live together. I just saw 1111 now. My first reading came the day after he got back. It was uncanny. I would kill to have the old ones back but I can’t open them anymore. Back then I was so fixated on us being in our happily ever after I didn’t take the advice and guidance as much as I just clung to anything she said that told me he loved me. Kind of pathetic really. I did do some self work though. I also would meditate and visualize Light coming from above to Danielle coming through her hands as she read my cards. Don’t know if that matters but I did it instinctually. I listen to my readings all the time because time doesn’t exist in them the way it does in everyday life. I just listened to one from June 10th that sounds like it is happening right now. I keep learning and growing from all of them. Past and present. the June one is the oldest one I have now but they go back to November of 24. So fast forward to my most recent separation three months ago. In hindsight she had been warning me about it but I just kept thinking why does she keep talking about my broken heart? Sure he had hurt me a lot but nothing like what she was talking about. Little did I know. So when I woke up September first to him gone without a word, well, it crushed me completely. The pain. OMG the pain was acute. My self esteem was destroyed. My entire world imploded. I didn’t let that stop me though. I got to work. I started re watching my readings and put all that guidance I had been half assing into real work. I kept getting my readings but I really started to believe in the messages. Which sucked because they all were telling me I had more to do every time I thought I was done. It was so frustrating and I had a little shoot the messenger going on in my head but I just kept plugging along. Self love was hard for me and when I got there I thought I was done. Let’s not forget I had already been doing a lot of work before that point. The other thing I had to do was feel my pain. I was more like I know we are going to end up together so I am just going to work on forgiving him. Wrong!!! Again!!! One night I sat down with my laptop and started journaling about the pain he caused me this time. I felt amazing afterward. It lasted for days and again I thought this was it. Im finally done now and we can get to the good stuff. Then Danielle talked about my anger and I was not addressing that. So I journaled out my anger. It was very disturbing at first. I realized I have never been that angry with anyone in my life. It felt so toxic and scary. I felt like someone else because that certainly wasn’t me. It was though. After that I felt remarkable. Surely this was it, finally. I started living my best life. I started knowing I would be okay no matter what. I began seeing someone even though I knew I could only love one man at this point. My new guy was exactly what I needed to get my self esteem back. Not the inside part. That was good now. The outside part was still not good though I felt so unattractive from my twins rejection. new guy also communicated and was honest. He never ghosts me. Not even when he is working he always gets back to me. My twin worked a lot too but was the complete opposite as you can well imagine. There were so many signs and synchronicities when I was around new guy. He even noticed and brought it up. He was meant to show me how I deserve to be treated by everyone. Including my twin. He played a huge part in my healing and that’s why I think there were so many signs with him. He taught me the most important thing of all. I do not need to chase. I especially don’t need to chase what already belongs to me. So there I was. All good. Broken heart gone. Forgiveness and unconditional love check. Self love. Check. Putting my lessens into everyday life check. The list went on and on. I was ready. This time he was going to reach out and we could start our new life. I drove myself crazy during those weeks. Looking for him everywhere and getting more and more doubtful when nothing ws happening. Don’t get me wrong. Healing that pain was huge and I felt so good because of it. But I was so busy in my head. making back-up plans with new guy or someone I haven’t met yet. I knew I would be happy no matter what and I was ready to get on with my life even if his free will took him away from me. I was beginning to think that was the case since nothing from him. Don’t forget this time is the only time we were separated without contact. I had nothing to go on when it came to him so protecting my heart was the only thing I could think of to do. Always a back-up plan for me. One thing I hate is waisting my time on something that isn’t playing out the way I want it to. Then one night I was listening to an old reading and something clicked. She kept talking about making a choice. I listened to some random others. Two to be exact. I must have been guided to listen to those specific ones because I finally got it. I needed to choose him. Not the other way around. No Back-up plan or man. I needed to make a choice to want this and him. I did it. Mostly through journalsng but I did it. I chose him. I don’t want anyone else and I told the universe as much. That was three weeks ago. Everything is three with me. A recent reading said the number three would mean something. That’s my angel number but I wasn’t sure what she meant. Once I chose him though my life completely changed. No longer ifs. Only when’s. I knew he had a doctors appointment a half mile from my house on the 30th. Don’t know why but I felt so strongly that I needed to not be here and left town to visit family at the last minute. I just got back yesterday. I got a reading a couple days ago saying something I did changed everything. Im not sure if it was leaving or not but I’m pretty sure that was it. You see by not being here I put my trust in divine timing. He may have come by but I wasn’t here. I could have made sure I ran into him but that would be trying to control. I left because I didn’t trust myself to not interfere. I left because Danielle told me distance doesn’t matter to the divine. I know my union is going to happen now. I know I could have never done this alone and I had no one in my life I could talk to about this. My angels telling me to look outside of my comfort zone was the best advice I could have taken. It led me to pure twin flames and Danielle. It led me to now. It helped me become my real self again. She was the catalyst after the catalyst of my twin. I have never spoken to her. I don’t even know what she looks like. But I love her very much and I will always be thankful for her. If you believe in the divine and all the messages and sycronicitieas we all see then how much of a stretch would it be to believe your angels are guiding you through someone who is more evolved and wants nothing more than to help you get to where you need to be. I know if I could speak for her she would say the same. But she would tell you to follow your heart and find the person for you. No one truly on this journey is capable of greed or hurting anyone. Danielle is no different. So that leaves me here right now. I am certain of my union. The timing of course is not mine and that’s fine for now. I would give anything to help all who are on this journey. All I have to give right now is my journey so far and what worked for me. Hope it helps someone. My phone is ringing and its new guy not the guy Im madly in love with. Im going to answer though because I guess he still has something to teach me. He is helping me get ready for my union. I will never lie or hurt that man. But he is not my twin and I know it. Im not flying blind anymore. Mostly because I started listening to the guidance I am receiving and putting it to work for me. I hope all of you can find and receive the help that I have. Its a real game changer if you just trust that all of this is divine.
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