Those of you who follow my story know that my runner „accidentally“ viewed my WhatsApp status 5 days ago.
Today, he blocked me fully in WhatsApp.
He is obviously in full runner mode, trying to be completely invisible and literally „blocking“ me out of his head … Doesn‘t seem to work all too well, though …
I did not reach out to him or do anything to provoke such behavior - apart from him being in my thoughts constantly. On the contrary, I feel his energy around me very, very often.
I“m watching this Kindergarten behavior kind of amused - though it hurts at the same time to see him obviously struggle so hard and to be unable to do anything about it. And it makes me sad to see that he is obviously right at the beginning of his part of the journey. It seems we have a long way ahead of us.
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Same thing to me. I was brought up in a traditional religious way. Got to mention my TF is married. Someone said in another post that you have to be integer and that you have to accept family. On the other hand I think I said before that I work at an elementary school (where I met my TF). Day by day I have to learn what divorce of parents does to these little kids. They sometimes can’t stop crying for such a long time. Or they become indescribable aggressive. Nothing can stop them. Of course depending on the kids age, it’s probably a considerable aspect to think about though?
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Birthdays are energetic reset points, and you’re breaking the pattern on his reset day. That’s huge. I got goosebumps reading that. And to the OP, I think eunichick’s insight about the marriage vows being seen as ‘the spiritual path’ connects perfectly to what was said earlier about guilt looking like rejection.
Sending you lots of strength today.
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I don’t think I can link to it directly but I’ve been using the spirit guide and past life regression sessions on here. Think it’s helping me see our past more together.
@chakra_balance , could you please elaborate a bit more on what exactly is reset on birthdays? The energy in the relationship? Or his individual energy? And how could this show for example? I didn’t hear anything about this yet, and would like to understand it correctly.
Yes, these two fit together, and it could very well be the case with my TF. Not directly as spiritual path, but as high moral standards he definitely has.
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I believe what @chakra_balance means is that birthdays are an energetic reset points for each individual on their birth date. It is what a spiritual advisor once told me as well 
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10 days after having blocked me fully in Whatsapp, he unblocked me again. But nothing else since. It’s my birthday in 3 days, on April 6. I’m very sure I won’t hear anything from him. Will keep you posted in case I’m wrong.
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Maybe the blocking is him trying desperately to shut himself in. The act of blocking is more about him building walls against something he doesn’t have the tools to process yet. From the outside, someone who truly felt nothing wouldn’t need all these steps to make themselves invisible. Indifference doesn’t require effort. Blocking does…
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Last night, I had a very clear dream which I remembered in detail after waking up. I rarely remember dreams, so this one seems to be important.
In this dream, I was in a working environment (maybe a conference room or similar) with some colleagues and people from another company. Obviously there were negotiations ahead concerning a special deal/project, and I seemed to be responsible for part of these negotiations. In this setting, my TF works in the same company as I do (which isn’t the case in real life). He entered the room together with another woman whom I didn’t know. She obviously wasn’t a colleague, but it seemed to me as if she was his girlfriend or karmic. She only sat next to him without taking part in the talking.
When the negotiations were going on for a short time, my TF got a call and had to leave. He left the woman in the room with us and kissed her good bye, which was extremely embarrassing for me to watch. About 10 minutes later, another colleague, who was outside, entered through the door and brought a piece of paper, which he handed over to me. It was from my TF and contained detailed insights concerning the other company and helpful written remarks for the negotiations. So he supported me although he left (and left the woman in the room).
I’m struggling a bit to make sense of this dream … Is anyone good in interpreting dreams and can give me some ideas? I’d be very grateful!
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Beautiful story… !! so much love, yet longing, silence and pain… like a TF journey.. you may get so many answers that may only confuse you or even give you hope to go down a rabbit hole… However the reason you are here and have asked this question, probably is because in your soul you know that this connection is your other half… The ultimate truth will only come from the soul coded awareness… that you can get when you go within… you can try going to a psychic who can only confirm what you already know.. This truth is your deep inner knowing and this journey is about alining with that…. Now if this seperation has taken you into a dark night of the soul, nothing making sense except turning within ton your soul, to God, a sense that the universe is aligning synchronicities, dreams, mystical experiences …. and a relentless hunger to get more spiritual wisdom and evolve to your highest good.. then what you are feeling inside is true!…
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Children are incredibly perceptive. They don’t just react to the event of separation. They react to the energy in the home long before any papers are signed. A household where two people are silently suffering, staying together out of obligation or guilt, teaches children its own set of painful lessons about love and self-worth in relationships.
There’s an old proverb ‘A house held together by chains may stand, but the children inside will learn to call the sound of rattling normal.’
I think what @SoulJourneyHome and @eunichick were saying about guilt masquerading as moral duty really connects here.
The guilt your TF may carry, and possibly what you carry too, seeing those kids every day, is real and valid. But guilt and wisdom aren’t always the same thing. Sometimes the bravest, most loving thing for everyone involved is honesty, even when it’s messy. Children heal from transitions when the adults around them are healing too. What breaks them is the unspoken tension and pretending, the emotional dishonesty they can feel but no one names.
None of this is simple. NONE of this journey is even close to simple.
But you clearly have a compassionate heart, and that awareness alone tells me you’d handle things with care no matter what unfolds.
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This is my first reply on this forum, I am so happy to have found you all! I feel for each and every one of you! This story has a lot of similarities to mine, and honestly I can’t wait to share my story (just need to figure out how
) I don’t have advice, but I do send sympathy and compassion for the situation. I have been feeling very isolated, like I’m going crazy or something. Nobody I have talked to in real life understands what this is or what it’s like. I feel truly blessed to have found this space to express!
Much love to you all~
Flame On!! 
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@MeAgain, thank you for replying to my story, and welcome. I see you feel very much the same as I did when I discovered this forum back in January. It’s such a relief to find people who really understand what you are going through. Have a little patience, I remember that my first postings had to be released by an admin, too, but soon you’ll be able to post them directly. You can share your story here in the “Twin Flame Stories” category. I’m very curious to read it, and I hope you’ll get similar kind and helpful advice as I received. You’re not alone in this.
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The universe handles everything in divine timing, so I wouldn’t worry about the moral standards part too much. His higher self already knows what this connection is, even if his 3D self is caught up in societal constructs like marriage vows and guilt. Those are just illusions keeping him from ascending into the love frequency you two share.
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5 months after blocking and unblocking me in Whatsapp, he is back in the game again. Exactly 1 day before his birthday mid August, he blocked me again. And keeps the blocking in place longer this time. I wouldn’t have messaged him anyway, but he obviously wanted to make absolutely sure that I don’t. Still in full Runner mode.
@StarGirl, your posting about the lighthouse made me smile. Some months ago, I developed a very similar practice which helps me a lot when I’m hit by his energy or such oscillations. I visualize myself as a lighthouse standing high on the shore, just emanating my own bright light, unbothered whether his ship is near or not. If his ship wants to come in, it is welcome, if not, I’m shining for myself. The bright golden light helps a lot to reflect intruding energies back. Often, I say during this visualization: “I stand in my own peace”. I’m sure this lighthouse visualization can help many of us, and it was really a confirmation to see that you are using it, too. 
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Yay, I’m so happy to hear it made you smile 
And its validating to see you have used it as well!
I came across the idea during my healing, I discovered I was/am a “rescue boat” when triggered. See a problem? See someone in trouble, having a hard time? Hop in the rescue boat and fix/save everything! Expend all effort, energy, time to make the issue disappear. And this was what has been draining me so badly my entire life.
So I changed into becoming a lighthouse instead, I stand strong with my own light, and others can either see the light and come towards it, or ignore it. But either way, I am still happy and warm in my lighthouse. No more scanning the horizons for people/problems to fix or rescue.
That really sucks he blocked you again, I know how that feels 
To me it just shows how freaked out internally they are, to need that click to block you to feel in control. And how lost, given that they still see YOU as the threat, not what they see reflected back of themselves.
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For those who follow my story, I’d like to send a short update. I told you he blocked me in WhatsApp on the day before his birthday, and kept the blocking in place. Well, this time, it was for 29 days.
3 days after he unblocked me, he viewed my WhatsApp status, which consisted of several pictures. He saw them nearly all. Since then … nothing, but I also didn’t post a new status yet.
I continue doing my inner work, I detach as good as I’m able to and I set up a new boundary that I never ever in my life will be the “woman in the shadows” again. I reached a calm and surrendered state, with rarely a “dark” day mixed in between. Trying to rebuild my life beautifully, whether he alters his life situation one day or not.
But his behaviour shows me that obviously, he is still struggling. He could leave the blocking in place, But he didn’t. He could have ignored my WhatApp status. He didn’t. He even viewed it openly, so that his name appeared in the list. And I still feel his energy around me, but when I do, I reflect it back to him via being the “lighthouse”.
I’m very curious if I’ll see any substantial change in our connection in the future. Will keep you posted.
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