Hey guys ! I’m Chris and I’ve been on this intense journey for a while now. It’s been ups and downs for sure, but I’ve come to a place that id never thought id be in. Let me explain a bit of my story!
I started going to a gym 3 years ago, i was just recovering off of a dislocated knee and also just moved in with my grandparents. A lot of new beginning were happening, and little did I know that I would meet her, my DM. I remember when I first saw her, she was all so beautiful, but I thought it was just physical attraction at first. Things started offf slow, I would see her every morning at the gym. Time went on and one night I had a very intense dream about her. This dream sparked something inside of me when it came to Katy. From then on the chasing began! But I didn’t know that at all. Each day spent feeling got stronger, feeling pulled towards her more and more. Dreams continued, music I found related to how I felt about Katy, synchronicity started to flow into it all. So much was happening and I found myself overwhelmed with it but also wanting it all to myself. A big part of this process was overcoming my fear of talking to her. I was afraid to approach her, although I had these feelings for her. Time passed, maybe and year or two later. This brings me back to last year, March 2025.
The feeling built up so much. You can only hold onto them for so long until you need to get them out! At this time I felt ready to go for it, but still scared of what would happen. I knew nothing about her, not even her name at this time, but all I know is that I needed to do this.A big part of me doing it was music. Songs were pushing me to take that leap of faith, over and over again. Songs like Iris, You and me, Before it’s too late, Here is gone. I also had this thought, that in 50 years from now would I want to be able to say I had the guts to get in the car ? It’s a line from transformers, and it really connected me to this even more.
I remember this day like it was yesterday. I had made my mind up the previous day to talk to her today, and that’s what I did. At this point all I wanted was to get my feelings out, after 2 years of nothing but chasing. I remember how I felt that morning, hadn’t slept most the night, feeling like I was about to throw up and feeling so energized and chaotic. I get to the gym , and I see her.Then something so weird happens, I notice that everyone is staring at me as if they know what is about to happen. It’s like the universe watching me through people. I remember feeling so much and felt so jittery. I see her and at that moment I’m listening to say anything by Tristan prettyman, I didn’t want to do it at all, but I know I had to. I walked up to her and said “hey can I work in with you?” She smiled and said yes. From then on we talked for a bit and I just remember how fast those previous feelings faded, and how comfortable I felt talking with her! Her name is Katy, and I found her to be so very beautiful. Mid way through conversation I knew I had to tell her how i felt, looking back I could have done it better but I know it needed to happen. I remember saying “there’s something I need to get off my chest when it comes to you” I told her I wanted to talk to her on my way out and she said why can’t I do it now lol, I was afraid at that very moment! Then I just told her, and her face turned so red! She said she had a boyfriend and then walked past me with a sorry look on her face. At that moment I couldn’t say a word, so I just walked away.
The months following this encounter would be the hardest to come.I found myself feeling lost and alone. I would still see her at the gym, but things were different. The energy shifted, I started to see the chasing that I was doing after that encounter and clarity started to flow. I believed that she would communicate, but as each month went on my belief started to crumble. It only pushed me to look to myself more and more. It was a long process. The energy was slowly changing though, although it didn’t feel like it back then. 2025 was one of the hardest years of my life, but so much to learn from it as well. Then something so crazy happened.
It was October 2025, and the craziest thing happened. So I work for a tree care company and we were looking to get some advertising done for more business. My boss had been planning it for months, and I found out through social media that Katy works for a advertising company. I thought that the odds of that happening would be slim, that we would work with her company. Time passed it was coming closer to working with the agency, then a few days before I found out it was the one she works for. This was such a surprise, and I was totally scared. I had sent a love letter to her work months prior, and I had this nasty feeling inside of me. We ended up shooting an advertisement video for our company with them, and Katy was there. She knew me and I knew her, we recognized eachother. She didn’t say anything and I didn’t either, but I know the universe brought up together for some reason that day. I could never forget how aligned that moment was.
Time passed once again, and things didn’t get any easier. I had stopped going to that gym because I had moved into a new place, so I hadn’t really seen Katy too much. A lot had fallen apart in my life, and I hadn’t no structure for a while. I didn’t know where I was going now that Katy was out of my life.eaxh month I was just going through the motions, but at the same time I felt the disconnect happening from Katy more and more as time went on.
Now we are here, and I feel so much peace in my life. I no longer chase Katy, and I finally am living for myself. I still think about her of course, but not in the toxic needy way I did in the past. I healed through these passed 6 months, I needed the time away to bring clarity into my life. Right now I head somewhere and I don’t know where it is, but it feels light. I wonder if Katy thinks about me? I wonder if she is mirroring me right now, having clarity in what happened between us. I believe union is possible, but I don’t let it control where I am heading. I am okay alone, and okay without Katy. She has taught me how to love who I am and the universe has taught me that I can do it alone. Today I decided to go to the gym to see Katy, after months of not seeing her, and things are flipped. Now I don’t react to the way she makes me feel, I am safe in my own energy. I seen today that maybe she is the one who chases me, and maybe she has things she needs to let out. I see that she mirrored me in ways today, and I wonder if she will be coming forward here soon. If not, then I continue to walk towards the light! That’s all I can do and I’m okay in that.
That’s just a summary of my story. I’m here to give my thoughts and advice on others situations. I hope I can help people out. The one thing I’ve learned the most is that patience and time are the most important thing on this journey of healing. Thanks for reading my story, you will see me around !
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