My Twin Flame Epiphany

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Moving over here from Twin Flame Forum, and I’d love to share my story again to see if anyone has any new insights or advice:

My tale is a long one, and I hope after you read this, maybe someone can give me some advice / insight. Because right now. I feeling incredibly lost:

My Twin Flame journey started when I was 17 (I didn’t realise it at the time). My first love, my first serious boyfriend, my first a lot of things: JB. We dated for about a year and a half before we broke up. It ended badly with me ghosting him, and pretty much shutting him out of my life. He returned when we were 21 (at my Grandmother’s funeral to pay his respects) where I asked why he had decided to attend and that I never wanted to see him again. I learnt later on that he had done it because it was his last attempt to win me back. After this, we never spoke again, but he continued to stay friends with my younger brother.

Fast forward 22 years later to 2023. I was living overseas, and my father had just passed away. I travelled back home to attend the funeral, and JB turned up. He was now married (to an ex-school mate of mine that I know) with two children. I decided to let bygones be bygones, and greeted him with a hug at the wake. I also sent him a message via FB after to thank him for always being there to support my family. And we ended up talking, and meeting up to catch up. On 17 July (717), when we were saying goodbye, we kissed. And the feeling was inexplicable. His immediate exact reaction to the kiss was, “Oh boy.” It was as if someone had pressed the pause button 22 years ago, and now we had restarted were we left off.

He told me he’s always felt that I was his soulmate, and honestly the term “Twin Flame” only came to my knowledge after we reconnected. It’s been a painful journey so far because of the obstacles of the long distance and our karmic connections. I ended things with my karmic partner, and he told me that even before I came into the picture, he was planning to separate with his because she cheated on him in the past and they were only staying together for the sake of their children.

However, after a fight in April 2024, we stopped talking for 5 months. He then reappeared on my birthday in October 2024. And I had hoped that we could have a conversation about what is actually happening between us. Because we had made so many plans on how we can overcome the obstacles to actually be together and start a life. Now it seems that he is still with his karmic partner, and we are (again) not speaking.

Despite all this, I see signs everywhere. Dates. Significant numbers. Songs. Initials. Names. 717. 177. 1029. 2910. 312. 111. 222. 333.

I’ve gotten to the point that I want so badly to give up and forget about him, but unlike break ups in the past, I cannot seem to shake him off. I can hear his voice in my head sometimes, and I wonder if that is just my mind playing tricks on me. I’ve even questioned if we are actually Twin Flames because it seems like I’m the only one who is “awakened”. I’ve asked psychics about this connection, and they’ve told me it is a Twin Flame connection. But how can I be sure?

I’m honestly feeling very lost and alone. I’ve tried reaching out to him, but the last time I’ve heard from him was at Christmas. Nothing is bad between us, so the silence is confusing for me as well.

If anyone can help me, or give me any sort of advice. I would really appreciate it

Thank you for reading this crazy long essay. It helped take some weight off my chest.

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Thank you for sharing so vulnerably.

That “bomb” in your soul is the sound of awakening, it is both exhilarating and terrifying. It’s a beautiful and sacred moment, but yes, it really does have moments that sucks to go through.

My one piece of guidance for you right now is to simply be present with the feeling without getting too caught up in the future. This journey isn’t just about the other person; it’s a powerful catalyst for your own spiritual growth.

They are a mirror, and they will show you the most beautiful parts of yourself, but they will also eventually show you the parts that need healing. The intensity is the point. It’s designed to wake you up.

For now, enjoy the beauty of this connection.

Ground yourself. Journal about your feelings. Be gentle with yourself.

Remember that the ultimate destination of this path is a deeper connection to your own soul. He is just the key that has unlocked the door. Sending you so much love and steadiness as you begin.

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Welcome to the forum! So glad you found us. What you are feeling is real and valid.

If you are seeing that many syncs in numerology, then there is nothing we can tell you that Spirit is not already trying to send your way.

Sending you a big hug!

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This part is one of those areas people disagree about, and I won’t pretend like I have answers that nobody else has.

I completely understand the urge for twin flame confirmation. One of the best descriptions for the journey for me was being put on a bucking bronco after being blindfolded. Something is going wild, the ground is moving beneath you and you don’t know why.

The problem is, I don’t know if anyone else can tell you if this is your twin or not, and I think at least most of the people more experienced with this journey tend to agree.

Yes, it sounds like your story has many of the hallmarks of a twin flame connection, but I believe that’s something you only figure out from within. You can use tools like the Tarot or charts to help you figure it out, but I don’t believe anyone else can figure it out for you.

That’s not me trying to be unhelpful. I genuinely don’t think anyone else can tell you. I don’t believe in paying psychics who are incentivised to tell you that you are.

All said, I’m not trying to tell you that you’re not on the journey either. I’m just telling you that you need to find answers for this stuff from within (as much for the benefit of anyone else reading this).

As for what you do now, I don’t think I could add anything that hasn’t already been said recently in the my twin flame is married thread. Nuances change, but the advice is always the same because it’s the only way through.

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Hold onto that feeling. It’s what gets you through the hard parts. Mine is running right now and it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever been through.

I don’t have any advice that has not already been said before but if this is your twin you are going through it for a reason.

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What you’re experiencing with feeling their presence, hearing their voice, the separation sickness - these are documented aspects of twin flame separation that many people go through.

Same thing with you feeling like the only awakened twin. One of you becomes aware of the spiritual importance, while the other remains focused on 3D life circumstances. It doesn’t feel fair, but it happens for a reason.

It sounds like you understand what’s going on here, so let me ask you. In the last year since that Christmas how have you been working on yourself and your journey?

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I think maybe this is why this one doesn’t have a story section?

Every journey is unique. We all experience it differently. My journey won’t be the same as anyone else’s here.

BUT…

There is no advice anyone could share here that wouldn’t be in that thread already. While our path is ours, the overall journey is the same for the entire collective.

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Hi, glad to find you here again. I hope you’re feeling better than weeks before. I think, there would be a stagnancy period for every person. It’s like a period between two breaths. It’s a period when we’re given time to rest before the next cycle begin. I try to send you a DM, but still can’t figure out how.

I feel that this week message is for us to keep steady like a giant tree. That tree canopy always shield others, make them comfortable. For now, let your own canopy shield and embrace yourself.

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Did I say nothing was happening? So a few days ago, I was just lazily scrolling through my “For You” section of Instagram and chanced upon a post. As I read it, the words sorta spoke to me. So I “liked” it. And as I double tapped, I looked down to the bottom left and realised that my Twin had “liked” the post too. I have never chanced upon any post that he had “liked” before and when I reread the words. I found myself in tears. I walked out to my balcony and looked at the sky and wes just sobbing and saying, “Why me? Why this? Why now? What do you want from me?” But it is evident from the post that he undoubtedly is aware of our connection, even if he hasn’t discovered about Twin Flames. He knows our connection is not an ordinary one. And that’s what I took away from this post that I saw…

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So happy that you’re here! I was wondering if you’d hop over. I’m glad you did :heart:

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That is so crazy he liked the same post!! Talk about synchronicity!

Okay, I know I’m not an authority on TF’s by any means and could wrong, but that to me is a pretty damn clear sign he is your Twin Flame. Merely because if he’s dealing all of the same things you are to THIS depth, detail, and intensity, stiill after all this time…then liked the very same post? There’s just no way he’s not. If that happened to me, it would’ve offered a pretty huge chunk of confirmation.

The post also is one of a person tormented, and once he reaches his own threshold of pain, maybe then he’ll finally let go of the security blanket that sounds like his marriage.

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I’m glad to see you here, too. Talking to you is always such a joy :heart:. I’m pretty sad when I learned that the other forum closed, but we could say that it’s some sort of a new beginning. We could learn a new experiences, lessons, suggestions, ect. This forum always has some raw feeling, because most people here always talk from their own experiences. I don’t want to miss these beautiful things, for real.

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Thank you, @StarGirl.

I’ve definitely gotten to the part of my journey where I know he is my Twin. It is comforting to hear someone else affirm it, but I know in my heart that he is. There have been way too many confirmations and signs for me to ignore. Also, I’ve never been the sort of person who has had issues with letting go and moving on. The lessons I have learnt since my awakening cannot be attributed to anything else than this connection

The post did make me sad because I guess it would be comforting to know he was doing alright. All I’ve ever wanted is for him to be happy

But, enough about me. How are you doing? :heart: I’m glad you are here

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Right back at you, girl. Let me figure out how I can send you a message. I absolutely love speaking to you too. I hope you are doing alright. Sending you so much love :heart:

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I’m so happy you’re now confident that he’s your Twin :star: This entire thing is soooo much harder when you aren’t certain.

It’s so sweet you care about him so much, you’re sad he’s feeling the same melancholy feelings as in that post. You truly do love him :heart: I feel the same for my twin, in the end. But I think I struggle more with that he can compartmentalize so well, he can feel “happy” very easily, whereas I feel and am connected to everything all the time without end, and cannot do that.

So while I’d be sad if I knew my twin felt anything negative regarding love me (if he even does), it’d also give me hope that maybe he can’t compartmentalize this connection, and may choose to do the work because of it.

And I’m doing progressively better, thanks for asking :hugs: But this is your thread! I want to hear more about you.

Have you had anymore dreams? If you feel like sharing, could you remind me if you tried dating others since leaving your karmic? Has there been any signs of cracks in your twins marriage other than the past cheating?

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I feel perhaps I should have better edited my post because I’ve grown a lot since I initially wrote it. I’m still trying to figure out this new platform, and responding from my mobile phone seems a lot trickier.

If there is anything the last 10 months have taught me, it is patience and letting go of control. I am, by nature, a type-A control freak. And in every relationship I’ve been in, I’ve always been able to maintain some semblance of control. But for the first time in my life, I have zero control over this situation. I feel this is one of the lessons I’ve had to learn: to relinquish control and to trust. Not everything must happen in my timeline. Also, patience and unconditional love. Not just for my Twin, but for myself as well.

In the last 10 months, I’ve meditated and journaled and that has helped my state of mind a lot. I’d love to say I’m so grounded now that nothing phases me, but truthfully, I still have bad days that I just fall to my knees in tears. But for the most part, his presence has become more like a constant hum at the back of my mind. It no longer haunts me or pulls at my energy like before. I’m slowly learning to accept, give thanks and release. Baby steps :heart:

Dreams. I’ve had too many to count. But the most recent one: We were in like a multi-storey building with many floors. Kinda reminded me of church or a church camp. I remember seeing him with another girl. He looked like how he did when we were younger, not now. He was wearing a white t-shirt and board shorts. I remember thinking he had moved on with someone else, but we had remained friends. We kept walking past each other. He said something like, “Yea, I sent Natalia Rose home yesterday…” and I replied, “Oh Natalia. She’s really pretty!” and he agreed. Despite me feeling like an ache in my chest that we just sorta broke up. Then later I was refilling an ice machine or something and he was standing there. And he mouthed to me, “I’m still here.” And I mouthed back to him, “I’m still here too.” We didn’t say the words, but we read each other lips. Then he walked over and hugged me. I remember feeling relief like he never left. Then he kissed me and said, “I love you silly” and I replied, “I love you more…” and he rubbed his nose against mine and said, “impossible” and we laughed. And I woke up.

I believe it was last year some time in July/August 2024, during a period of a 5 month separation between us (he ended up reaching out on my birthday which lead us to speak for two months before he disappeared after Christmas 2024), I did try to date. At that point, I was still not fully aware of the journey I was on - I only became fully aware of it in Jan 2025 -. It is funny how the universe works. In a nutshell: I met someone who had a similar life story to my Twin. Same number of kids. Separated from his wife for the same reason my Twin wanted to separate from his - she cheated on him. The only difference is that this guy, SH, was already legally separated. Whereas my Twin is not. Long story short, SH also ended up ghosting me. I honestly was like. Seriously, Universe? Again? LOL. But as you can tell, I moved on pretty quickly from that. Truthfully, SH wanted us to be exclusive. I, however, was going on these dates just missing my Twin. Wishing it was him sitting in front of me, not SH. an and it was after that experience that I realised that I can’t date anyone else when my heart so clearly longed for someone else.

After that, I started a new job and Twin reached out in October. Then disappeared in December. And here I am again.

This journey is crazy isn’t it? :heart:

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If there is anything the last 10 months have taught me, it is patience and letting go of control. I am, by nature, a type-A control freak. And in every relationship I’ve been in, I’ve always been able to maintain some semblance of control. But for the first time in my life, I have zero control over this situation. I feel this is one of the lessons I’ve had to learn: to relinquish control and to trust. Not everything must happen in my timeline. Also, patience and unconditional love. Not just for my Twin, but for myself as well.

God yes, when it comes to be a type-A control freak, and suddenly being thrust into a situation where you can’t control anything…except how you respond to the journey. B.R.U.T.A.L.

I’m also with you when it comes to one of the biggest lessons being to surrendering control and to trust. Which is essentially…having Faith. Something usually related to religion, but now I believe it’s a necessary, aligned, energetic state of existence all human beings are slowly being led to embodying. Perhaps in that way, the old “Twin Flames are here to raise the vibration of the planet” is true…we’re just at the beginning of long, slow evolution from the visceral, material survival of early humanity, towards pure energetic existence as “awareness”. But I guess….I’m getting off topic :face_with_hand_over_mouth:

Truthfully, SH wanted us to be exclusive. I, however, was going on these dates just missing my Twin. Wishing it was him sitting in front of me, not SH. an and it was after that experience that I realised that I can’t date anyone else when my heart so clearly longed for someone else.

Also extremely interesting experience. How SH mirrored your twin in those essential ways. It’s funny, my twin’s dating, or was dating, a woman who was also divorcing her husband, but had the official separation on paper while I did not. I feared my twin would focus on the paper and not the truth of my situation because of that.

I have had a few dudes seeming interested in me. I just don’t wanna, lol. I know my twin is it for me. But at times when he kept choosing to hurt and disrespect me, or far preferred other women, I forced myself to contemplate what that’d be like to date others, because I truly do wish to experience companionship and healthy love in this lifetime. And if my twin didn’t want me…

I think it’s also pretty crazy SH ghosted you the same as your twin. You’re right, WTF, why Universe? :joy: You’ve already been there, done that. Maybe it was a way for the Universe to test all the lovely growing you’ve done.

So your separation’s been going on since December last year? What was your last interaction like? Meaning; was it super close where he ran from the intensity, or do you think the Holidays and being around all that family made him run due to fearing the loss of that comfortable sitatuation and/or being reminded of societal expectations of having a family?

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Way ahead of you, @TwinFlameTroll. I’ve got 2 :ok_hand:t2: