So… our first meeting in real life is coming up soon, after 4 years online contact.
It actually was supposed to happen two years ago, but back then I slipped into a dark night of the soul phase and didn’t go. Now it’s coming up again — and everything is mirroring that time from two years ago so intensely.
On top of that, it almost feels even worse this time… everything in my life seems to be going wrong right now, like constant obstacles being thrown in my way. I’ve ended up in a pretty intense trigger spiral (including a dynamic with a third person who’s triggering me intensely). The whole dynamic has shifted a lot, and in my personal life it’s basically one crisis after another constantly at the moment. Including a full-on nervous breakdown because of all the difficult situations I’m dealing with in my personal life right now.
At the same time though, there are also tons of synchronicities and dreams connected to my twin lately.
And then, “by coincidence,” YouTube showed me a video saying that before union, everything tends to fall apart first…
So now I’m wondering — do you think this could be the reason? Like some kind of preparation for the meeting, where all the triggers come up one more time so you’re ready?
Or is it more like the devine timing still isn’t right, and the universe is trying to delay things and tell me: it’s not time yet?That I should not go again?
Has anyone else experienced this? What’s it been like for you?