So… our first meeting in real life is coming up soon, after 4 years online contact.
It actually was supposed to happen two years ago, but back then I slipped into a dark night of the soul phase and didn’t go. Now it’s coming up again — and everything is mirroring that time from two years ago so intensely.
On top of that, it almost feels even worse this time… everything in my life seems to be going wrong right now, like constant obstacles being thrown in my way. I’ve ended up in a pretty intense trigger spiral (including a dynamic with a third person who’s triggering me intensely). The whole dynamic has shifted a lot, and in my personal life it’s basically one crisis after another constantly at the moment. Including a full-on nervous breakdown because of all the difficult situations I’m dealing with in my personal life right now.
At the same time though, there are also tons of synchronicities and dreams connected to my twin lately.
And then, “by coincidence,” YouTube showed me a video saying that before union, everything tends to fall apart first…
So now I’m wondering — do you think this could be the reason? Like some kind of preparation for the meeting, where all the triggers come up one more time so you’re ready?
Or is it more like the devine timing still isn’t right, and the universe is trying to delay things and tell me: it’s not time yet?That I should not go again?
Has anyone else experienced this? What’s it been like for you?
I haven’t experienced it myself so it might not be true but I guess it is because the divine timing is not right but… it’s approaching.
Things are falling apart, maybe you are making space for the most permanent thing in your life! Twin flame holds a big part of your life and you need to create space for it. Remove what doesn’t serve you and bring what are needed. You are rapidly changing and building yourself stronger.
Maybe, you are encountering some obstacles as they would serve as the last minute dusting and prepare you for the ultimate change in your life.
Stay hopeful and vigilant. Watch for more signs and most importantly, your inner voice. You will find the answers inside you when you are ready to recieve it.
Keep on pushing through I heard it can be seen as accelerated push through aka growth, others say it’s our own subconscious programming. Let us know how the meeting went please!!
I experienced sth. similar I think, I felt him coming very close energetically after I kind of got moved to his area (different country), then got VERY angry at them. Before and after my whole life feel apart, again. Like, crashing very suddenly. I have almost none of my former friends left and thought my mom would die on my actual birthday, but now she recovered and will move close to my sister, all of which suddenly sets me free to theoretically relocate which had been one of the big blocks (my life being built in another country and responsibility for mum). I am now out of nowhere constantly traveling for work since 5 months, it’s weird.
@Lulu Thanks — I’m really just trying my best to get through this difficult time.
The meeting is coming up very soon, and I’ve noticed something: I kind of pulled my energy back to focus on myself, and at the same time I was a bit angry with him because of the ‘unnecessary” triggers, especially when I’m already going through a difficult time.
With all the personal stress I’ve been dealing with lately, I naturally had to focus more on my own situation and gave him less attention. Interestingly, that led to him reaching out twice in a really kind way, just to check in and see how I’m doing.
Now the meeting is only a few days away, and I’m a bit unsure what to do in advance: should I keep pulling back and kind of ignore him, or start interacting more again so the meeting doesn’t feel unnecessarily awkward or complicated? (Maybe I should mention that we will both work there together for a few days, so I really don’t need more awkward stress. His Family will also be there and also this third person that triggered me a lot)
The funny (or interesting) part is: I realized a few days ago that the day I’ll be arriving and meeting him for the first time is “coincidentally” also the 4-year anniversary of our online friendship.
That feels like quite a noticeable synchronicity again — or maybe it’s just a coincidence?
For now, I’m taking it as a sign to just go through with it and see how everything feels and unfolds. Since I’ve already been feeling the energy so strongly over the distance for years, I’m really curious what it will be like in person.
Oh I think you know what’s best and also that we mostly kind of “automatically “ do what’s best. So you pulling your energy back and him reaching out kindly sounds like the right thing for me:) Remember, they react to our energy.
Do you also look forward to the meeting? I also understand the nervousness, but probably it will also be amazing?? If he is triggering you and it’s already too much, remember you can also tell them to go soft/take it easy, I think they always react to that, at least mine did. Also the universe listens of you all it for support or allowing down, we just have to remember to ask during the tumultuous times! Things can turnaround quite quickly I think.
Wishing you a beautiful meeting!!! Interesting that a 3rd party will also be there, shouldn’t be be freaked out about that, they must catch the vibe surely??
So… the meeting is over, and I really feel the need to talk because everything went kind of wrong — weird, awkward, and very triggering.
It even ended with me blocking my twin (does this make me a runner??), which I honestly never thought would happen…
Unfortunately, I can’t really go into details here without potentially being recognized. So I was wondering — is there a possibility to talking privately?
I really feel the need to share and express what happened, but I’m not sure how to do that here while staying anonymous because I would have to share details… and honestly, AI hasn’t really been helpful for me with topics like this either.
I was reading your story and when I reached the end it shocked me. I’m so sorry, wishing you the best. I don’t know if there’s a way of talking in private, but know you have all my support.
You may not like this, I for sure wouldn’t like it if I were in your situation, but if that happened, it was probably meant to happen. The triggers are there to help each of you work on yourself, we cannot untie a knot that we don’t see. Sometimes it feels never-ending but it all has a purpose, which is to heal and grow. That doesn’t mean that you’re not going to be with your twin, there’s a post here that I don’t know how to quote called: Twin Flame Union IS The Point.
I don’t know the details so I cannot tell you if you’re the runner, but I’d say you’re in the phase of no contact separation. Every twin flame is different so you have to figure out what is asking of you right now.
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I heard it can be seen as accelerated push through aka growth, others say it’s our own subconscious programming. Let us know how the meeting went please!!
