I struggle a lot with patience. A lot.
My twin somehow can be patient with anyone. Anyone. Doesn’t matter how hate-filled or stupid the things they are saying are. She can smile, tell them it’s okay and see where it comes from.
Two years of actively working on it and… I’m still below average, but I’m a lot better than I was. Still a work in progress.
The biggest change for me has been reaching a place of peaceful acceptance after years of struggle. I no longer put my twin on a pedestal like some untouchable divine being, and I can clearly see their human flaws while still loving them. I think our souls needed me to see us as equals, probably mirroring dynamics we’ve healed from past lifetimes together. I went from complete desperation to genuine contentment with whatever unfolds, while somehow loving them even more deeply than before.
Twin flame awakening can trigger some serious personal transformation, apparently the connection acts as a catalyst for confronting fears and healing wounds. You basically sped up 15 years of therapy in however long it’s been since meeting them. The book, the art, the music, your creativity is clearly waking up alongside everything else.
…I must admit that I’m at the verge of giving up right now (3 years no contact, and I’m in my mid 20s in an Asian country). But ever since we separated, I’ve never discovered so much of myself that I had never considered/repressed in my younger years, being a kid all over again in an adult body. So. Many. Choices.
There’s like, a side plot that also contributes to this development though. I’ve been fearing this one guy (mutual friend of ours) for the longest time for no reason - and then I discovered the reason - I reacted so horribly it’s definitely one of the factors to our separation. I feel like I’ve been released from my shackles to not walk on eggshells anymore since twin walked away.
Maybe my twin is only a karmic or catalyst. But I will forever be indebted to them.