I felt my twin even before meeting him. I always felt a presence without a face, since I met him, that presence became him. I think it was always him, I just didn’t know. But we’re now in separation, I stopped feeling that presence after years of being with me, and it felt really weird. And what’s worse, now I feel it again, but I have to pretend I don’t and surrender to myself, and that hurts the most.
God, this is the part that just grinds you down. My DM is dating someone else, and not casually either, like genuinely involved with this person.
And I still think about them constantly. Every day. Almost all day. Which just makes the whole thing so much more crushing.
Yes but sometimes I am not if I am not thinking of her with my mind I am feeling her energy around me 24.7
The unawakened twin thinks about them just as much. The runner still thinks about the chaser. Maybe more. But it shows up differently, this obsessive curiosity about why they’re so electrifying, picking apart every word they said, trying to solve them like some kind of puzzle while being terrified they might catch on to how you feel.
Before my awakening it was this weird mix of physical attraction I couldn’t explain and just… knowing there was something almost mystical about them. That combination drove me crazy. Like having an embarrassing crush on someone you know you shouldn’t want.
After awakening, all that mental chaos dissolved into pure love. Everything finally made sense.
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