So apparently my twin flame has moved to another of our offices in a different city. I’d always wondered if he’d leave at some point so I guess this is easier but I’m not going to see him now probably. Other office isn’t so far away but I’ve never been there before no reason to go. I guess he just wanted away from me unless there’s some other reason for him moving there.
Just feeling really sad and like I’ve done something wrong. Trying not to cry I’m wfh today but got meetings soon. He’s bloody touching me as I type this too. Crying now ffs. This is so hard. Is there an upside to this apart from growth? I never even got a hug.
Hi I too had my tf leave to another store. When I first heard he was going, I didn’t (believe it) but he somehow managed to tell me and a few other’s he’s leaving. I tried very hard to not show it .. but when I got home it was a different story.. yeahh.. I mourned, I didn’t think it would hit me this hard.. it was horrible. But eventually it got better with time.. he does pop in, but very rearly.
That was nice he told you. Mine hasn’t said a thing. Maybe he just found it too intense especially having so much tension and nothing coming of it. Maybe I should have gotten drunk and dragged him up to my room at our work event. Maybe I should have hugged him when I had a chance. Maybe maybe maybe.
I think I’ll have a good cry tonight let it all out. Maybe that’s what I need.
Got our Christmas party soon too. Expecting him to either not show up or to ignore me. This sucks.
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My beloved grandmother died yesterday. She was very old and it was expected but it’s hitting me hard and I feel empty. This comes a week after finding out my TF has moved office.
We weren’t there but visited my grandmother afterwards, she died at home with carers and nurses with her. When we arrived the carers were waiting for us and gave us hugs and kind words. One of the carers had the name of the care company with a large flame on her uniform which got my attention.
On the way home from work after getting the phone call I was crying in my car and my heart chakra was heavy then I felt a kind of stabbing sensation in the middle of my chest. And then (as I was driving along) felt something go in down there (?!) a few times. It was bizarre not sure if perimenopause stabs or some sexual thing. Then my inner thighs were tingling.
Took my mother for a hospital appointment this morning and walked past a white feather and car with reg 66 (which I’ve been seeing a lot of lately). Then heard my TF’s name on a song on the hospital radio.
My TF also had a bereavement or family ill health recently, not sure what happened exactly but he was off work for a week.
Lips are tingling a lot and right ear ringing softly.
It’s a lot to take, just feel so sad and detached like it’s not real. I miss them both so much.
I only want to share this to give you a little hope about your situation, @Greycat. My Twin and I currently live in different countries. To cut my long story short, we met in our childhood country when we were 17 (we are each other’s first loves), broke up, reunited 22 years later, and just went through a 10 month period of no contact. Currently, because of life commitments and work prospects, we are in different countries, separated by oceans. We haven’t seen each other face to face in nearly 2 years. He broke no contact with me on my birthday in October, and since then we had brief interactions. And one piece of news he shared with me is that he might have a job opportunity in the same country as me, different state, but same country. The possibility of that happening, in my opinion, would be lower than zero. That we could be reunited in the same country after all these years?
Why am I sharing this? Because distance is temporary and necessary for both to grow into the versions of themselves they need to be. And when the time is right, I promise you only coz I’m experiencing now myself, that the most impossible situations will become possible. Because the universe will conspire to help you both reach union. Stay strong. Stay positive. We are here as a community if you need
That’s quite a remarkable turn of events! How exciting and fingers crossed for everything to come together and you to be reunited! My TF and I have never been together physically unfortunately but I believe the feelings were there, just the wrong timing unfortunately. But I’ll take your story as inspiration that these things can align and you can be brought together again. I’m working on my healing and keeping hope in my heart.
I rescued the feather at the hospital and also found 2 more in my grandmother’s house - one in the bathroom and one in a bedsheet I was folding. Have felt a comforting hand on my arm and that song “Just the Two of Us” was playing as my mother and I had lunch in a local restaurant. Beautiful moments.
I told my mum that I’ve been going through something else painful as well and after asking if I’m ill or it’s to do with my divorce I said I can’t say exactly but it’s something spiritual. She asked if I’d been doing the ouija board! She kept asking but I said I can’t tell her but am going through some stuff but will be okay.
Everyone’s journey is unique and different as we all have different wounds and lessons to learn from this experience. My Twin and I are not in union or reunited really; just not completely in no contact anymore…or for now. My fear now is that he’s gonna ghost/disappear again. I have no idea. I just need to stay grounded now
If he is your Twin, trust that he will find his way back to you somehow. Right now he’s in another branch, not too far away. Who knows what surprises the universe holds for us
That’s good progress. I hope we can reunite soon. Its my work Christmas party tonight. I’m not there because of my bereavement and not sure if he was going anyway. I hope he’s having a nice time if he’s there.
Just wondering if anyone here has lost anything big in their life during this journey? I’ve heard of people losing friends, family members, jobs, homes during DNOTS etc but this is just from comments I’ve seen elsewhere. Not sure how common it is. I only have a small family and friends group and the thought is a bit scary as is the thought of losing my home. But again not sure if this is a rare occurrence.
Eta I just lost a family member but through death, not as a direct result from spiritual awakening or anything.
Because of the multiple people who know my Twin and I (his wife and I went to the same high school so we actually share mutual friends), I have had to remove myself from certain friend groups. The proximity to them was too triggering for me.
We could lose connections. I lose friends. Sometimes it isn’t losing physical connection, but the emotional attachment that tied us before, loosened. For the example, before, I am very attached towards my parents, I always need their agreement over anything, I tell them everything that’s going on in my life. But, after this journey, I realize that there are some boundaries, that even if it’s our parents, they can’t cross over.
I lost my mother over a year and a half ago @Greycat.
While it was definitly a difficult pill to swallow, the reality was that our connection had reached a plateau.
She had taught me everything I could have possibly learned from them, and passed on all of her life’s knowlage to me and my other siblings. It was simply time for her to go.
It was fairly sudden, yes. But I believe she was able to achieve everything she sought to achieve in her life. It wasn’t an easy one, that’s for sure, but it served as an example to everyone around her of what a strong and courageous woman trully is.
I know death always carries a heavy energy, but it is a part of life, even if it is a difficult realization to accept and surrender to.
We come with nothing. We go with nothing. This universe is going to make sure that you going to go with nothing. Which means at some point, before it’s time for you to go, you will be faced with the fact of learning the necessity of letting go of what you have attained in this lifetime. And if you have not learned, and have not understood that this is going to come, then I think its a very hard awakening. It’s a very painful awakening to realize that you have spent, 70 years, 80 years, following your goal, and now there is no other choice. You have to let go. - Master Shi Heng Yi
Some months after initiating separation I lost a decade-long friend group (though it’s another member, not because of me. The conflict has been brewing for a year and it broke out). “Thankfully” at that time I was already aware that the twin flame journey will give me big upheavals, so. I kind of expected that. Sigh. Aside of them I almost have no friends in this town for real.
But other than that most of my current external problems are caused by the government.
