Didn’t sleep well last night cried a bit but mostly felt empty after discovering my twin has transferred to another office.
Today I’m wfh can’t face the office and can listen to music and cry without being seen.
But I’m being good. I’ve not checked to see if he’s on the work chat which I used to do a lot. I don’t know if that’s “chaser energy” that he can feel but it’s not healthy or productive. It’s obsessive.
Anyway looking forward to moving forward and healing. I am wondering what that looks like on a daily basis for you all?
I’ve been doing daily meditation opened my 3rd eye and can see some things mostly colours and it looks like figures including us but things change quickly. Flowing and merging. So not sure if I can improve on this.
I’ve been using crystals a little during meditation when I lie down. I got amethyst, rose quartz and prehnite that I saw recommended.
Do a bit or yoga when I’m not feeling tired. Do affirmations from time to time.
Need to work on inner child healing and trauma healing. Is there anything else I should be doing? Do you have a schedule for this stuff or just as and when? I work full time and do my morning meditation before I start work. Last week I had a couple of days off and as well as having a clear out I did various meditations which felt good at the time but I was exhausted later on.
Any help gratefully received! Thank you.
Just looked out my window and a woman walked past pushing twin babies along… I saw them yesterday too.
It sounds to me that you’re doing all the right things the yoga, meditation, healing crystals etc… even taking the day off work and crying it out
I think it’s perfectly normal and healthy for all these big emotions and feelings to come up and be overwhelming sometimes, and we just have to remind ourselves that you’re going to be ok, feel what you feel, do your best no matter how small(any progress is good progress, including just resting), and being gentle with yourself, for it’s not a race but a journey of learning more about yourself and your growth.
What it looks like for me on a daily basis, is mine comes in waves. Some days I’m happy and good, and then the next few will be heavy and emotional and I can’t seem to do anything, including eating or sleeping. During those times I just try to not think about cooking proper meals like usual, and instead just make something quick and small, and I don’t bother with the housework, I just focus on resting and calming myself down. Meditation definitely helps. As well as sitting in the sun I believe it’ll remain a but hectic for a while, but eventually things will smooth out
Thank you for being so kind and encouraging Blackcat! It’s so good to talk with others going through the same thing, have you been on your journey long?
I mentioned to my friend that he has moved to another office, I mentioned about feeling like I’ve known him for lifetimes and our souls being the same age despite me being much older. She ignored that part and just said to take it easy day by day etc.
I thought I was doing ok but was exhausted last night and barely slept. Had a cry in my bed and couldn’t get back to sleep. My beloved, very old grandmother is approaching end of life at the same time as this so am all over the place. Am listening to some vibration raising music now which is helping. Not got much appetite either, it was like this back at the start too after we first met.
I would love some time in the sun but it’s winter now and mostly grey and rainy. Hopefully it will come out to play for a bit sometime.
I need to do some shadow work, work out exactly what needs done. My mother triggers me a lot too, I need to help her with stuff since my dad died and she’s hard work. Definitely a lot of childhood stuff to work through. Sometimes I think I’ve come so far already but evidently there’s lots to be worked on.
First off, be gentle with yourself. Crying, feeling empty, not wanting to go into the office… all part of processing a major shift. You’re already doing the right thing by not checking whether they’re online. That checking behavior keeps your energy focused outward instead of on yourself, and that’s where all the real work happens anyway.
Your crystal choices are solid. Amethyst is great during separation, it helps with the anxiety and supports that third eye work. One thing, though: some practitioners say don’t use rose quartz without amethyst because rose quartz opens your heart without discernment. The amethyst helps you stay clear.
For inner child work, start simple. Look at childhood photos of yourself and just speak to that version of you. Tell them you love them, that you’re here now, that they’re safe. It feels awkward at first, but stick with it. A lot of what gets triggered in these connections traces back to those early years, especially ages 1-7.
The exhaustion after doing multiple meditations… yeah. You’re moving a lot of energy. Consistency matters more than intensity. Even 5-10 minutes daily beats marathon sessions that drain you.
Signs like that tend to show up more when you’re in a receptive state, which tells me you’re more open than you might feel right now. Keep noticing but try not to attach too much meaning to any single sign, they’re guidance for your inner growth… not predictions about outcomes.
Since you mentioned wanting to work on trauma healing, shadow work is something that gets overlooked a lot and it’s often why people get stuck. Basically, it’s about looking at the parts of yourself you’ve hidden or rejected. When your twin triggers you, ask yourself what part of YOU that represents. Your twin is literally mirroring back things you need to see about yourself. I would avoid anything like the mirror exercise.
Journaling helps with this. Some prompts that actually work: “What past wounds have surfaced since meeting my twin?” and “What am I grateful for on this path, even during difficult parts?” or there’s a whole list here. Write for just five minutes. You don’t need to make it a whole thing. Seeing figures and colors during meditation sounds like your third eye is definitely opening. That will develop over time. Some people use 432Hz or 963Hz frequencies to deepen that work if you want to experiment.
Most people don’t have a rigid schedule and that’s fine. Really, there are no two twin flame paths that ever look the same anyway.
What works is building small and consistent habits.
Morning meditation before work, like you’re doing, is perfect. Some people add mirror work (literally looking at yourself in the mirror and saying affirmations) and evening journaling to close out the day.
New moons are a good time for shadow work and setting intentions. Full moons work for releasing and forgiveness practices. Ho’oponopono is simple for this, just repeating “I’m sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you” while thinking of whatever you need to release.
About the chaser energy thing you mentioned. When we’re in that pattern, our energy is focused outward, making them the source of our peace instead of ourselves. Surrender doesn’t mean giving up on the connection, though. It means letting go of trying to control outcomes and putting that energy back into your own healing. There’s a saying that when the chaser stops chasing, the runner often starts to come back. Not because of any manipulation but because the energy shifts.
The fact that you’re asking these questions and doing this work already puts you ahead. Just pace yourself.
Prehnite is actually really good for overthinking if you find your mind racing about them. It connects the heart and solar plexus so you’re leading from the heart instead of spiraling in your head. I keep mine on my nightstand.
I did a lot of mirror work and spent time doing things that felt good - like going out during full moons and listening to music that put me in a better headspace. He came back. I don’t know if it was because of the energetic shift or just timing, but that’s what happened for me.
I love that you’re already doing daily meditation, that’s been the foundation of everything for me.
What really shifted things was when I started asking my higher self and guides during meditation what I specifically needed to work on, rather than just following general advice. They’ve shown me that the answers are already within us, we just need to create that quiet space to receive them. Since you’ve already opened your third eye and are receiving visions, you could try having those direct conversations with your higher self about your next steps.
And can I just say the whole “don’t check their social media” advice is valid, but also everyone does it at some point. Chasing, checking, all of it. Be kind to yourself about slipping up. The goal is to gradually do it less not be perfect about it immediately
Thank you so much I really appreciate your kind advice. I feel so lost just now. Wish I’d done more about this situation instead of worrying I’d get in trouble for pursuing a younger coworker.
I’ll try both those crystals together thanks. And use the prehnite too.
The meditation is going well I think but I wish I could make out the visions clearer. I tried asking my higher self and guides for help but not sure if anything happened. Im not sure if I’ve even met them or what form they take? Is there a certain method to it? Are answers abstract rather than spoken?
Thanks for the tips on inner child work I’ll look for a photo. I think my teenager/young adult needs healed too.
I’ll look into the past wounds and shadow work list examples too, thank you. The hertz recs sound good I might have already listened to some of those.
I’ll look at the moon stuff. We actually met on a new moon! I discovered that later, interesting.
My twin isn’t on social media that I’m aware of so that’s probably a good thing, less temptation! Most young guys are so I find that interesting. Maybe he’s already on a path of sorts? I know that my FB use has dropped a lot since this journey started.
Meditation and hypnosis focused on self-love have really helped my healing process. I also practice self-Reiki, which helps me feel more grounded and connected to myself. The more I heal and work on myself, the more our connection seems to improve like a ripple.
Something that helped me with inner child stuff was bath rituals with salt and essential oils. Sounds basic, but the warm water helps you access emotions more easily. I do mantras like “I am safe” and “I deserve love” while in there. The solar plexus chakra is connected to inner child work so yellow rose oil is good if you can find it
I keep a dream journal next to my bed and it’s helped me notice patterns I was missing before. During separation I had these recurring themes that didn’t make sense at first, but writing them down made connections easier to spot later. Your dreams might be working through stuff that’s too much to deal with when you’re awake.
This separation might be written into your soul contract. Before we incarnate, we agree to specific catalysts for growth with our twins.
His transfer could be something your souls planned together to trigger the healing you mentioned needing - the inner child work, the trauma processing. Sometimes physical distance is part of the agreement so we actually do the work instead of getting lost in the 3D connection.
Can anyone do self reiki or do you need special training? Unfortunately I don’t have a bathtub otherwise I’d be straight in there.
I rarely remember dreams unless they’re very intense! Usually getting chased by something or some trippy nonsense! Only had a few dreams about my twin.
I did wonder about soul contracts hmm. That would make sense because it was super intense and frustrating. Like we might explode with the tension.
My routine’s pretty similar - I pay attention to my dreams too. Last night I dreamt my twin and I were painting a mural together, and waking up I felt unexpectedly peaceful. Each morning I jot down any twin-related dream (even just a quick scribble) and do a short meditation with my crystals and a favorite mantra. Later on, if I start feeling overwhelmed, I do a quick grounding stretch or doodle something to shift that energy.
Pairing meditation with a creative outlet like dancing to a calm song or sketching has helped me process the heavy emotions without burning out.
Has anyone addressed the somatic side? Trauma and emotional pain literally live in our bodies, not just our energy fields. I hit a wall with meditation until I started doing breathwork and even just purposeful shaking to move stuck energy through my nervous system. Sometimes we’re so focused on the 5D healing that we forget these 3D bodies need physical release too.
The most powerful shift in my healing work happened when I stopped obsessing over the outcome with my twin and redirected all that energy back into myself. The meditation, crystals, and inner work you’re doing become so much more potent when they’re genuinely for YOU, not secretly hoping he’ll feel it and come back.
And you need to be really honest with yourself abaout this.
I had a dream last night but can’t remember what happened. He wasn’t in it though. Think it was a stressy dream not a peaceful one.
I got a sodalite crystal yesterday so will incorporate that into my meditation. Breath work sounds good and I sometimes do yoga, pilates and have a dance in my kitchen.
How do you redirect energy just by focusing on yourself?
It’s so difficult going through 2 separate losses. Having to make funeral arrangements too. And dealing with my mother who is hard work, argumentative and very draining. I’ve got a lot of heaviness in my chest today, huge grief can’t take a deep breath. Not much energy and body aching. Feeling a bit nausea and shivery too. Feeling adrift.
You asked about schedules but I’m the worst person to ask because my ‘routine’ is chaos. What I’ve learned (the hard way, as usual) is that overdoing the spiritual stuff backfires. Burning yourself out doesn’t speed things up. You need time to let the healing settle in. So your exhaustion after those days off makes sense. For inner child work - your twin mirrors your childhood wounds back at you which is. fun. The feelings of abandonment and rejection during separation often stem from inner child patterns.
Also the twin babies synchronicity - come on. That’s not nothing.
I take mini-breathing breaks at my desk and silence all his after-hours alerts. Treating him like just another coworker helps me stay focused and calm at work.
I felt this post in my heart. The fact you’re not checking the work chat anymore is huge progress - that takes strength. Your wounded inner child carries past traumas that can cause energy blocks in your connection. When we feel abandoned or rejected by our twin, those emotions often stem from inner child patterns.
Your crystal choices are lovely btw. Sending you love through this part of things.
the yoga, meditation, healing crystals etc… even taking the day off work and crying it out 